My name is Lucas and I’m 24 years old from Brazil.
I watched the youtube and read the book The mindbody Prescription, it all made sense to me how I would jump from symptoms, and the rabbit hole you go trying to fix the problem, and how this is actually a distraction mechanism.
It all started after I developed severe eye pain some months after my grandma died when I was 17, dropped out of school. When I finally got better one year later, I started having severe depersonalization and derealization and depression. When I got better from this, I started getting brainfog. Later when the brainfog went away, I developed RSI.
Left hand in june 2020. Completely frozen and unable to move, 1,5 weeks later same symptom in the right hand.
The RSI was my TMS dream symptom. “This is perfect! He will be spending his whole day on this endless research on how to get better, monitoring symptoms and micromanaging! Lets distract him making him feel less pain in weird positions, more pain in different weird positions, make him use weird ergonomic stuff and develop endless plans to deal with the pain. The doctors said he will have it for the rest of his life so this time we hit the perfect spot”.
I bought more than 10 mice, the last one being a head mouse .
Endless research to get the most frictionless mousepad possible, and applying silicone spray to make it 0 friction.
Endless research on ergonomics.
Endless research on how to minimize hand repetitive movements, with voice recog software, foot pedals and you name it.
5 years, tens thousand of dollars spent, hundreds of thousands of dollars not made because of decreased workload.
The amount of money I lost believing in this brain trick is insane, I could do so much travel around the world.
The cure? A free youtube lecture, free testimonial youtube videos and a 10$ book.
I started the program. I accepted the diagnosis very very fast, by day 3 I already had thrown away all the ergonomic stuff, foot pedal,hand braces and put the headmice to rest.
1 week, 50% better.
2 weeks 99% better.
And I’m still better until now. 3 months.
I’m typing this on my keyboard in one go and didn’t even think about it.
My workload now is 60 hours a week in front of computer, and in the free time i still play very high repetitive moviment videogames with my friends, like League of legends and do supermario 64 speedruns (yes, smashing the button super hard in repetitive moviments and I love it)
I would get weeks of hardcore pain if I played 10 minutes of these games.
During my work, I developed this weird habit of throwing random repetitive fast clicks on the screen, just because it feels so good to be able to do it without fearing the fake pain syndrome.
I can’t really say I’m 100% because I get still some weird reminders I had this fake pain but they usually go away within 2 minutes.
Dr. John Sarno is my hero. The gratitude i have towards this man is so huge I can’t explain it in words. 6 years of suffering simply gone. And the fear of future suffering gone too, most problems I feared were TMS related.
